I am in no way near where I thought I would be at this point in my 28th year of life. I’m not sure what I expected, but where I am now is completely unexpected.
I suppose I imagined I’d be working a glamourous, big-city life in a corporate job, looking the part, meeting colleagues at the local, trendy café for our weekly meetings, and attending guest list only, industry events by night (superficial much?). I haven’t thought about where this expectation came from or why that sort of life equates success to me until now. I’m currently traveling, enjoying the luxury to live in unfamiliar parts of the world and loving the opportunities I have had and the people I have met. Yet, in the back of mind I feel as though I haven’t achieved “success” and that I should be home making efforts toward “starting a career”. My mind and emotions are at a struggle with being content with where I am professionally; However, I also struggle with the notion that society’s idea of success is so engrained in my way of thinking that I overlook my own successes and triumphs in working and living abroad and I even overlook my own happiness.
What I’ve come to realize is that it’s not the superficiality of obtaining a career, or job title, or status (as it clearly used to be), but rather the challenge that I find desirable. I have been searching for a way to explore, as well as push, my creativity and intellectual limits. Taking the initiative to put my thoughts and ideas eloquently on paper (or webpage) is something I have always found particularly challenging. Putting myself and my thoughts out there, vulnerable to people’s opinions, is not something I find easy.
A close friend of mine, who has inspired me through her own personal and spiritual growth, recently reminded me that the best way to balance out these feelings is through writing and reflection.
This space marks the beginning of a new challenge for my own personal, creative, and intellectual growth in search for my own idea of success and I would be delighted if you joined me.